Be Still My Soul

Be Still My Soul

This morning I woke up fearful, negative and thinking about how the chemo would effect me this week.  Negative, negative, negative.
Then Agustin reminded me that, from other times, sometimes it doesn't affect me as badly as other times.  Good thought.  But, nevertheless, in the back of my head still feeling a little "down" about the whole thing.
I knew what I had to do...get up, get moving, get ready and get with the Lord.  This morning, all that came into my mind were the lyrics to a great old hymn called, "Be Still My Soul".   I posted the lyrics here and it does bring me comfort and reassurance that God is in this and I have to trust Him ALWAYS.
Getting ready to go to the cancer center, checking in, sitting in the waiting room, waiting for my name to be called, and, asked by the nurse, calling my name, "How are you?"   With a big smile, I will say, fine today! 😊
As I walk back into the center, I see familiar nurse faces and people in all stages on IVs and bottles hanging from poles...I get set up and will have my blood checked.  I will ask, will you check the tumor marker today?   Whoever the nurse is will say "yes" or "no" but it will probably be "yes".    But, I will not have that report until tomorrow afternoon if I call the center.
Taking my blood is no big deal because I have a port inserted and all of that is an easy process for me.  No poking around, putting on rubber bands to find veins, just one prick into the port  and out comes the blood, quickly and easily.
I have to wait about 15 minutes to find out if my "platelets" are high enough and they usually are.  If they arent', I leave.......hm.  Set up another appointment and have a great week without chemo:):):)
So, I have to get ready now to get picked up to go to the cancer center.
Meanwhile, check out the lovely hymn set to the tune, Finlandia!!!