Free after chemo treatments for now

Just a few words this morning about thoughts and life events.
I am no longer on chemo treatments for now because they no longer are working.  Now, to look at it from a "negative" point of view, I would say, "oh no, it is downhill from here".   But, from a positive and soul-searching attitude, I say, "yay, no more chemo, no more side effects, no more haunting thoughts about when the next treatment comes, and how it will pull me down psychologically". 
So, I am choosing to live freely now, joyfully now, and realize that our lives really are "mysteriously unpredictable" as far as what the medical field is concerned with.   We rely on the sciences to keep us going up to a point, but, our own bodies and attitudes toward God's ways also are part of the equation.

That famous verse from Psalm 139:13-14 says:  "For you created my inmost being;  you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made."

Don't get me wrong.   I truly love the fact that my doctor is exploring every possibility for me in the immunotherapy field and she works hard at learning and finding out what is "out there" for healing and life extension.  But, my part is this!

If I don't have the will to live and hope with the knowledge of God's healing power through each day, my thoughts will pull down on my physical body.  I am thankful I have a doctor who never gives up on me with her attitude and with her answers to my frank questions.  

So, today as we see the hurricane taking a little bit less of a "category", let us all pray for hope and help for those in need of hope and help!  

Amen:):):)

Back from the beach, Sept. 8, 2018

Where do I start?   We had a most rewarding time with our dear friends at the beach, namely, Topsail Island in one of those beautiful houses with an elevator.  The whole four days were hot and humid, but beautiful and refreshing in the cool air conditioned house.
Our friends drove us down and back, spoiled us with good and careful cooking, cleaning up, happy conversation and lots of RandR:)   I ventured into the water once but found my balance (because of the neuropathy) was not trustworthy and decided I had "been there done that":):)    I went for a walk with our friends one hot humid late afternoon but that was very tiring, so back I came and on they went💓
Now to the updates on the cancer and treatment.   I still have cancer, from what they tell me.  Although, if I didn't have the biopsy and the scan, I wouldn't be able to know that fact:)   I only get tired  and sometimes stomach issues with bloating or reasons to take a tablespoon or 2 of Mylanta which calms it down.  Other than that, I am thankful I am no longer under the "siege" of the chemo called Folfirinox every 3 weeks!   Woohoo!   I think having my little pains right now beats having those exhausting side effects of chemo, just sayin'😏
So, the lastest is this.   The biopsy through my back into a lung nodule did not give sufficient (?) DNA  to be able to test it for an immunotherapy as I understand it.  So, yesterday, blood was drawn to send it away to find out what the DNA is in order to research if there is a test for the same thing.   Hm!  I thought:   why didn't they just do that from the beginning?  So, I asked a nurse who is working on that project and she said "they" always prefer to do the biopsy first.   I didn't pursue that conversation anymore.
So, I really don't know what will happen if the test doesn't work out but maybe will find out a few answers next week when I have an appointment with my doctor.  I have invited my immediate family to come to the appointment if they are free.
I really am not ready to die yet but I am ready if the news comes that that will be the only outcome with no treatment of any kind which is the situation right now.
I will face it when it comes and when God is ready.  When the time comes, I know He will prepare me and prepare my family.  Until that time, let's live each day to the fullest with positive thoughts, joy in God's leading, Matthew 6:34, and take life as a gift each day!!!  Hope is always out there...when HOPE is gone, it must be hard to bother😊