Adenocarcinoma

Well, here is the latest on my cancer.   It is all they said it was, just confirmed that it is in fact, adenocarcinoma, after the biopsy.  I was not told what "stage".  I do not understand what "marker" means but it is 4,700 when it only should be 12 (?)...something like that.
Next week a port will be inserted and I will receive instruction on chemo which I guess will soon follow.  Merry Christmas 🎄
I was undecided for so long as what I should do as far as chemo, hospice or going up to Johns Hopkins for a trial (which I was told by my the doctor here that I was probably a good candidate for).
I may be a "good candidate" but my support group is here and that is very important to me.  Really, God is in charge of the whole thing anyway.
I asked the doctor what my life span would be with the chemo and she said a year.  Without  it would be "less"....she didn't commit on that one though:)  So, God is still in charge.
As I look at this whole surreal thing, I realize that I  want good quality of life what I have left.  And, I  am not ready to give up yet either.    When I feel too much pain and fatigue, that makes me feel like giving up.  As soon as I get energy back without pain, then I have hope again.  I am just learning how to live with this.  How long and how, are the big questions.
I am looking forward to Thanksgiving Day with my family.  We will also have a family picture taken at that time by a professional photographer who has offered to do this.  I am deeply indebted to him.
Tomorrow I am having a pedicure, right here in my own house.
Life is short at 75.   Yesterday we celebrated the birthday of one of our friends from church....she is 100 years old.
Nothing profound at this writing.  Thanks for listening 💓