11/6/2018: (God Will Make a Way (with lyrics) - Don Moen)

This morning when I woke up these lyrics were going through my mind.   I was "marveling" at how I went into the treatment yesterday and was expecting the treatment to take place.  I was so weak last week from the treatment that I could not even imagine having another one this week, and sure enough, platelets were too low.
Both of these situations happen with 2 different outcomes.  If my platelets are too low, my body will not be able to take the chemo.  My blood will get thinner, my immune system will not fight off the germs around me, I could get very sick.  On the other hand, there are these cancer cells inside me which are being "fought at" with the chemo which kills all cells, even the good ones as I understand it.  So, my thoughts are:  I don't want the chemo treatments because it pulls me down emotionally and physically, or, if my body can go through the "torture" of "killing the cells", try it anyway.
In yesterday's case, it was decided by the medical team that if my platelets are below a certain number, I should not have the treatment.   And, I am thrilled and thankful that I don't have to have it!
So, God did make a way for me to come home, start recuperating from last week's ordeal and have a "good" week.
I am praying the mouth sores go away and the little wheezing in my lung goes away.  I am praying that my strength will build up so I can "go out and play":):):):)   So maybe I can go swimming or walking.
I am also praying for these particular fellow cancer treatment friends whose lives I am in touch with.  Katherine, Cathy, Susan, Sarah, Hattie, and Kristin  are undergoing their own challenges in the treatment line.  All of us have a different set of challenges and side effects but we all know that God makes a way daily for us.  Sometimes He surprises us and shows us we did get through it, somehow, when we thought we couldn't.  And, then there is a relief for awhile at the end of the tunnel.  We have trouble sometimes realizing that looking ahead has the fear because it is hard for us to trust, but, looking back proves He was there all the time, keeping things in perspective and taking our bodies through "the deep waters".   AT least, that is how I feel today, having a week of relief from the chemo treatment and mentally getting ready for next week if my platelets go up to the place where they won't present another challenge.