Thoughts from deep inside

      I have been thinking about outcomes, health issues and general "quality of life".  At this point in my life, I don't feel any pain, weakness, bloating or anything having to do with cancer.  I have energy, appetite, can swim and no real stress.  In one year, my health has improved.  I cannot explain other than God's work in me physically and mentally.  It is certainly not something physically I have tried to do intentionally with the exception of the chemo, the PH balanced water,  and the diet and eating habits, more or less. (I still indulge sometimes in  sweets and Cheetos:) 
       Although I still take chemo therapy every 3 or 4  weeks, I wonder about the future.  I have no regrets about not having surgery at all.  My life expectancy seems like a long future ahead the way I feel now.
       I am saddened and pray a lot for those friends of mine who are suffering pain because of cancer with appetite loss, weight loss, diarrhea and nausea.  Although I have those temporary side effects from chemo for a few days, I know they are temporary and not caused at all by my cancer.  My friends, however, have those pains and illness right now because of the cancer.
      But, I know that my situation is also temporary in the fact that one day, we will all die of something.  I could die of something else or I could die of the cancer.  
      I want to give all praise and glory again to God, my healer, my security, my inward escape from doubts and fears about the unknown and outcome that one day I will be in His presence healed and in a different "form".
     Of course, the way I get there is my fear of pain and illness, but, I want to believe that God will carry me through that time as He has promised.  Trust and hope!
     I Corinthians 10:13   "No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face.  All you need to remember is that God will never let you down.  He'll never let you be pushed past your limit, He'll always be there to help you come through it."  (The Message)
     These are reassuring words for the hope I have in my future for myself, for my husband and for my loved ones.
      Looking forward to a Thanksgiving full of  thanks giving!